Decisions… Decisions

So basically I’m doing the whole back and forth thing with my future again. Now I’m thinking about community college (Enterprise State or Wallace). Why? Because I don’t want to leave my brother and because it’d change things. I guess I don’t want to leave home because it’d be like the final thing that would say “hey Jacqualyn your grown and your Dad isn’t here to see it! Oh matter of fact he wasn’t here to see you since you were 15 and you’re not 15 anymore and your dad isn’t here”. I don’t want to face that. I know I will have to one day, but it seems so soon. So the question is, do I leave now just to face it? Or do I stay and give myself some time?

I hope I can figure this out soon.